Isn't loyalty enough?

Isn't loyalty enough?

This question has been bugging me for so long, and yet I still don't know the answer. I have been to oh-so many situations, I have experienced every situations that are bound to come and go in my job. Still I'm here, clueless to what should be the answer to that question.

I guess, with all my rants today-the answer will be, yes it's not.

But I'm not asking for anything, you know. I just feel like I'm left out (Correction: I just don't feel it. It's already the reality-DAMN!). It's like I am being left out now that there's a lot of new pretty faces wearing nothing but their stinky accent and stumbling grammar.

I'm not saying that I'm perfect, but I'm pretty sure I'm more than what they are worth for. But why I am being left out like a piece of useless thing? Haven't I done everything to please them? I'm so pissed off. I'm like a dress, the casual knee-length dress. I'm used, daily and as almost everytime I am available. And then I'm left out, because I just went out of fashion- maxi skirts are now the trend (is it really the maxi skirt or the above-the-knee dress now? For heaven's sake, I don't know. The thought just came up to me now).

I know you're disgusted with me. I'm really pissed off. Don't bring personal issues here. Okay? Personal issues should not be mixed with work. Get it? You know, if I'm doing something out of your standards, let me know! So I would know what to do! Don't make me guess like a fortune teller.

Yea! I'm pissed off!

This is supposed to be an article. Unfortunately, it's going to end like a letter full of rants and clamors. God! What's with the unnerving silence?!!

Free Talking

Somebody asked me, what is free talking? Honestly, it’s a question that I could easily answer, considering the line of job I am involved into, but I didn’t answer it. Instead, I pondered over and over. I continued asking myself, what is free talking, really?

Free talking is something like having a conversation. It is a conversation that can start without a definite topic at all. In any online English classes, there will always be a topic to be discussed. And that topic is of course, from a certain book.

But in free talking, there won’t be any book that would guide you for topics. Like here, I really don’t have any idea on what to write. But I just want to write, and this entry would flow like a free talking session.

To start a conversation with another person, or let’s say, with a student, the most likable question to be asked is ‘how are you today?’ right? So let’s begin this article with the same question.

HOW ARE YOU TODAY?

If you will ask me this question, probably I would say, ‘Oh, I’m good, I’m feeling good’. If you are in a hurry to raise your issue, maybe you wouldn’t doubt my answer. But if you are a person who would like to know the good thing behind the word good I told you, then for sure you will ask me for more.

And that’s how the conversation will start.

Yes, I’m good. And honestly, I’m feeling good today. I can feel good anytime I want to. There’s no question on that. I can also feel bad whenever I want to. Feeling is a choice, by the way. Quote me if you want to post my remarkable statement, because it’s mine and it is original. You choose your feelings. Fate doesn’t choose feelings for you. If you choose to enlighten yourself, then you can make yourself happy. If you choose to put yourself into too much trouble, then that’s what I’m saying awhile ago. You are now choosing to feel bad for today. To make this clear, the actions that you choose to enact will certainly lead you to which feeling you should feel.

Just like today, I’m not really feeling good. For the nth time, salary’s delayed again. I was like, ‘hello, am I not going to eat till you give me my salary?’ but I’m trying to hide it. I don’t want to be branded as someone who nags about the salary. But hey, that’s my salary …



I’m not in the mood to continue this article anymore. Give this to the dogs!